Thursday, October 20, 2005

Today i want to dedicate this post to my grandmother, who passed away peacefully on 20th oct 2005 , at about 4pm.

My sister told me that my grandmother must have had a very very good karma to be able to die in her sleep. How many people are that lucky? Even though since young she didnt treat my father very well... but in my heart... there is no me without her. I remember the times she stayed at my house for weeks, how annoying she can be, and how she used my result slips to wrap the rotten apples. But that is all the past.

I was really really upset when i heard about it, i thought my sister was playing a joke on me. Because, coincidentally, Malaysia's Prime Minister's Wife also just passed away. Then i phoned my dad, he confirmed it with me. I dont know how sad is he, but i can feel his sadness. I never thought i would ever cry over her death, but i did.

Life still goes on as usual.
I felt the sorrow i never felt for years.
When i need someone to be with me, to console me, he is never the first one to be with me. He is always late. I dont want to believe him anymore...
I feel confused when i see him. He's like a shadow of him. Yet he's a mixture of everything.
Why must it happen to him? I dont want to see him, but im always secretly hoping he's around me....