Friday, December 09, 2005
dear dear ...this is an emotional wreck, i swear
in the midst of exams, just finished maths and english yesterday !!! omg im now feeling so stressed up about everything...
whats wrong with me...
weo... anyway, 2 more to go : accounting and economics.
WHO CAN HELP ME WITH ACCOUNTING? - im damn hopeless at it... hurr....
not only do i have to deal with exams...
i also have to deal with all the shit they've been showing me
i know i no longer like him, but still, imagine u in my shoes, u went out with a group of friends and the whole night u see "him" and my good friend flirting like mad. If he flirts with another girl i dont mind, anyway i dont care, but its my good friend, she's supposed to be my good friend, why is she doing this to me? she knows i wont feel good , WHY is she still doing this?
and i start to realise szesiang is a really nice guy. weo..~ although he might a little stingy, but thats good... this kinda guy will get rich some day ,.. lol ! but the things he says and does really makes sense. I find him a really sensible guy who doesnt flirt. Perfect ! Last night we were chatting and he realised i was being quiet and not really myself the whole night. Of cuz !!! how can i still smile and laugh when i see those 2 flirting in front of me?? but i was really trying my best to hide my sadness. Me n siang talked about relationships btw guy-girl and brother-sister. Both of us agreed that getting a really good god-brother is much better than getting a bf. because brother wont run away with another girl but bf will. And i really take kinch as my brother... he's very humourous and smart, and a very gentleman - he seems to be the perfect brother whom i can turn to when i have problems ! and i guess thats why i am so protective over him when i see him and adeline flirting. He doesnt flirt, its that adeline who flirts with him. I cant stand it ! that girl's a bitch ! i cannot give my brother to such a bitch!!! i must make sure kinch gets together with a good girl .
but i think im being over-protective... i know i know... i just cant help it... can somebody tell me what to do...
whats happening to me, i dont know !
and as i said... im seriously down on an emotional wreck.
hope everything can get better !