Thursday, December 07, 2006

I read some girls' blogs earlier on and was rather astonished to see their wonderful and strong friendship. I am seriously envious of it. *storms off*

I don't know why my gooden friends always have to be at least a sea away from me. For example, angeleyes in singapore, ashlea, frank and the others in melb, and xiaoxi in shenzhen. I envy people who can just reach their best friends in a short and cheap phonecall, or a knock at their door at 3am with a teary face and expect them to supply u with the amount of chocolates and candies and words to make u grin from ear to ear again.

Because its 3am now and i don't have anyone to turn to except my bed, - i am a tad emotional. Because i always thought there will be someone who can understand how i feel without really needing me to open my mouth and say it out. Because i thought he will be the someone to cheer me up when i need to. Because .....

Because he said he really doesnt know how and what im feeling, and he cares less to know.

That is why im clenching my fists at times hoping god will listen to what i have to say in my heart. Because no one else will.


From:
3;07am, the other me.